This has been one of those weeks. I'm not sure how to describe it, it's not like anything bad happened to me directly, but it seems like there is just so much going on inside my head that I am tired. I'm emotional. I'm a girl. Again, one of those weeks.
I finished at Blockbuster. Last Thursday was my last official shift. To celebrate, I got to scrape gum off the sidewalk. Thank you for that opportunity. The weekend was great and horrible. Yes, I am a girl and it can be both. The weekend consisted of a lack of sleep and frustrating conversations that weren't going anywhere. Anyone who knows me knows I don't hide it well. I expected a text from my aunt by 10am Monday morning asking me if I was okay and I wasn't disappointed!
I tried to explain it to her. Not sure it made sense but I was feeling sorry for myself. Over nothing really. So basically feeling sorry for myself but having nothing to feel sorry about. Yeah, cause that makes sense..
Tuesday I started my second job. I started at 6pm and got done at 10:30pm. Over four hours of deep cleaning made for a tired girl. What did I get myself into? The guys that are working in the buildings seem nice, the scrubs-type stuff is not nice. It slowed me down so I eventually took it off and then got a look like what the heck. We'll see who wins this battle.
Tuesday was the two year anniversary of Hayley Dawn. Gosh, I miss that girl. It's hard to believe it's been two years but I know that she is in such a happier place, a safer place. I'll never forget the night we wrecked the front of my car and hid the truth for six years. It wasn't until I was writing in a journal at the hospital that everyone found out what really happened that night. I can imagine her laughing cause I'm the one who gets to deal with her dad lol.
That's also the day that a friend's mom found out she had cancer a year ago. It's been a long year for that family but God is great and has given her a year. A hard year but she is still with us and is strong!
Tonight will be night 3 of cleaning. Last night I was out of there by 9 because we had done so great on Tuesday. Tonight I believe will be just me there for most of it. I need to get into a routine. I still get lost going into those buildings and figuring out what needs to be done and where. I don't want to be a disappointment but I also want to not be crabby the next day.
I am reading a blog of an amazing couple and the difficult months they have had and the hard time they are going through right now and one of the verses they had was Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord..." It's right there. HE knows. HE knows what's going to happen tonight, tomorrow, next week and next year. What an amazing reminder!
